Friday, July 9, 2010
Why Am I Doing This?
I've never been someone who enjoys writing. The only part of my job I don't enjoy involves writing progress notes or psychological assessments. I never anticipated having a blog. I also never really had anything to write about. However, that is beginning to change. I've finally found the courage to have a crisis of faith, and for the past year-and-a-half I have been reading, discussing, thinking, and praying my way through it. I wish I could say that this emotional struggle and pursuit of the truth has led me to the answers. Instead,I have found more questions. But, I have found a joyful freedom in exploring, questioning, and searching. I feel more alive because I am not surpressing doubts and ignoring my anxiety. I am growing. Becoming. What my spiritual life will look like in the future I can't say with certainty. But at least I will be a more authentic version of me. I am ready to express my questions and thoughts on this journey in writing. And I am eager to do it.